Something's Missing

this is an emo entry. be warned. but it's not really emo. just my heart pondering. I'm still the same as usual. :D

okay, so basically I went to sanlat the other day, and it was fun. although the sekompond + cabang one was funner but this one can count as well. I don't mind what it is as long as I have my friends and we have pure fun.
I put some photos in my facebook, if any of you don't know. :D
well some Alkhorians were also there; we got along well, they're as ribet as us and we can nge-klop~ (bahasa campur)

I went with andin's family to Al Ghariya. apparently my mom and dad had something to do, or other than that they can't survive the bitter cold near the beach. but it wasn't really that cold 0___0 don't you guys agree.

okay, so for the first time I actually thought, despite all the fun, that something's missing. like a huge chunk was gone and left, never to return. and will never come back. ever.
I never knew that it was the lack of a certain someone, who used to always hang around like a kid :D and i'm surprised to say that it's fajar. he's an irreplaceable friend, and I can't deny that. so it's only natural to miss him. though I have never felt it before 0____0
oh, and of course iwan too. he's a good friend. even though sometimes I dubb him as crazy. XD

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today carisa went sick. she could barely talk in the morning and even when she asked for water she had to do it in a whisper. let's hope I don't get caught up that way :D amiin.
I logged on into facebook as usual, and then my 2 old best friends from Balikpapan came on in MSN. we were just friends for one year, but we were inseparable. which made me lead to think, "what the heck happened between us?" because I didn't even bother to chat with them online. it made me feel stupid. it's like the past never happened.
so I guess it's true what they say; 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' and 'you'll never know what it's worth until it's gone'. I wondered if it will disappear as a past and never come back in the future. we might never meet again, and the time they went online are the only times I can actually talk. and I missed it.
I feel hopeless about it.
the last time we talked was a group chat, and that was months ago after the summer hols. I went to meet my best friend in malaysia, and he talked to me as if nothing ever changed between us. I was glad.
and my other friend, she's still in indonesia and most probably already kelas 3 SMP. she also chatted as if nothing has happened, as if our separation was nothing. and I was glad.

that small chat was my treasure. even though it only happened once. this year. and 2009 is coming: will I ever get that chance again?

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I wonder if we will end up the same way.

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"Pictures have memories, whether happiness or sorrow, whether like or dislike. but it cannot beat a true memory."
-unknown

because i'm bored. :D

FULL HOUSE

Pick 8 of your friends that you feel comfy with:
1. nisa
2. hamzah
3. dhe3
4. syania
5. carisa (yeah I know right she doesn't count but she is meh sister)
6. tresa
7. dodol
8. UH. UH. -THINKS HARD- UDAH GHABOT AJA DEH.

the last 2 are random - I put them there for the sake of the prosperity of the house. (lha kok)

These eight people you just picked are stuck in a house with you for a whole year. There is no leaving the house at all until the year is completely up. If you had to choose a person for every question below, write down which person it would be.

There are four rooms, who would be in each room
-room 1 - me and nisa? :D
-room 2 - dhe3 and tresa
-room 3 - syania and carisa
-room 4 - hamzah and ghabot and dodol

If there was someone singing making your ears bleed in the morning who would it most likely be?
... carisa. -ebil laugh MUAHAHAHAH-

If someone was considered the dad and the mom of the house, who would it be
-grins really big until it reaches ears- nisa and dodol.

If you wanted candy really badly and all of the 8 in the house had some, who would you take it from?
obviously... nisa.

If someone had to watch you brush your teeth (every) morning, who would it be?
carisa. and syania. need I say more. oh and tresa. because she's so random she'd love to.

Someones caught on the phone all hours of the night, who is it?
DHE333. sama nisa. and maybe dodol? :D

There was two bags of chips bought at the store, but 20 minutes later they are gone. Who ate them?
i'd leave it alone to rot for the mice but most likely ghabot or carisa or syania or hamzah or dhe3 or dodol or tresa or nisa.

Someones caught singing in the shower everyday at 2 o clock, who is it?
:p GHABOT LAH.

Who would hate being in the house the most?
most likely dodol because he has none of his passy. :D

Someone took (brand spanking new) pair of socks that were never worn, who is the thief?
GHABOT. or maybe even tresa because she's so random she'd love to.

Someone swept all the dirt under the rug, who was it?
me and tresa because we're so random we'd love to.

If there was arguments in the house, who would be the ones arguing?
uh... carisa and me, ghabot and dodol? bwahhaah

Who would be the one missing their boyfriend/girlfriend that wasn't in the house with them?
... SYANIA. because there's no certain someone.

You walked down stairs in the middle of the night for a glass of water, someone is dancing on the table in their Leopard Thong, who is the crazy one?
GHABOT LAH. dodol is a good candidate. AND HAMZAH.

A pillow fight broke through, who started it?
dhe3. she looks the type. then me and nisa and tresa charge and fight back and the boys would get ready and launch from behind dhe3 and attack us. syania and carisa would dig underground and jump up to get them. SPARTAAAAA

Theres a marathon of your favorite tv show, what is it? And who would watch it?
uh. SHAUN THE SHEEP? NO WAIT BERNARD. NO EXCHANGE LOVE AND THE OTHERS WOULD GET SICK AND ME AND NISA WILL GO KYAAA.

Someone made a fort in the laundry room, who was the kid?
obviously tresa because she's so random she'd love to. (I GOTTA STOP SAYING THAT BUT I CAN'T RESIST) and maybe even me and carisa because we're random too.

There's a prankster in the house that put plastic on the two toilets in the house, who are the pranksters?
NISA AND DHE3 AND ME. then hamzah would clean it up. :D

The musics too loud, who turned it up?
NISA AND GHABOT AND DODOL AND DHE3. then my iPod will be racking up with japanese songs that they'll stop.

Theres a mouse crawling on the floor all over the house, who is the first one to scream? and who is the one to jump in someones arms? Who would be the one to kill it?
scream:- dhe3 syania nisa carisa. me and tresa would stare and say 'oooo'
jump in someone's arms:- dodol jumps to ghabot
kill:- hamzah kills it with a sapu then dodol smushed it because ghabot threw him off his hands and it so happen landed on the dead mice. hamzah survived the crush. (the girls say HURRAH)

Someones crying, who is it and what happened?.
me and nisa because we can't watch exchange love. XD

Who made pancakes in the morning and almost caught the house on fire?
CARISA BECAUSE SHE FAILS. and hamzah because he wanted to eat badly.

Who gets sick of each other the fastest in the house?
idk I am not them how would I know. :D but we all go harmoniously together ja?

Someones tanning on the roof, who is it?
hamzah because he wants to sweat and get kurus.

Who is the tallest in the house?
... is dodol taller than ghabot or shorter? :S dhe3 can be a good candidate.

Who is the shortest in the house?
CARISA. WAIT NO, NISA.

Who is the loudest?

me and tresa and carisa because we're so random we'll destroy the house. and when me and nisa fangirl over exchange love. and maybe even dhe3 and hamzah with their capslock convo's.

Who is the clown?
dodol. OR THE SPACE SISTERS. who are yours truly. :P

Who is the most respectful?
ME OF COURSE. -phael-

Who is the one you go to talk to the most?
nisa, tresa, dhe3, syania. and hamzah. and dodol. and ghabot. but most likely carisa because she is just liek zat.

Who's in bed first?
hamzah because he's a good boy.

If someone woke the house up with pots and pans, who would it be?
SYANIA AND CARISA. they'll annoy me and i'll kick them with kempo

Someone has the same sweater as you, do you get mad at them and who is it?
nisa and I don't get mad because it look horrendous on her and perfect on me. :B

You spilt ice all over the floor in the kitchen, who would be the first to slip on it?
HAMZAH. or nisa. but most probably I would :D because I love ice cream.

A year is over, who cries when its time to say goodbye?
EPRYWAN? wait nu we would be gay and go home.

american trip - second

so, just though i'd continue stuff about my american trip.

3rd day
uhh... wait lemme sort out what I did on this day.

oh got it. :D we went to NBC studios. it was pretty cool, looking at studios and seeing presenters present. (wth)
I also got to know that in reality , studios aren't as big as we see on screen. IT'S A SCAM PEOPLE. they have crushed my dream T_T
I felt like taking pictures but since it's subject to copyright we weren't allowed. dammit.

later on in the day we went to central park. IT WAS HUUUUGE. I promise you i'll post pictures of it later on. it's so pretty <3 style="font-style: italic;">how encouraging am I.
then since it was so cold and the winds were picking up, we went next door to the metropolitan museum of art.~
oh and while I was walking up the stairs to go in the museum, an old man beside me JUST FELL OUT OF THE BLUE. (no, not out of the sky, I meant he tripped so suddenly it startled me)

and he was bleeding. 0_____0

ms sabbagh ran over to the man and asked if he was alright. I think he was crying? idk.
the boys wanted to help him up but the police got him and we were left to go inside.

so, the museum wasn't all that bad, but the sculptures are vulgar that I had to close my eyes. :D some painting were like that too. what's with romans and greeks out there...
then after we went out, we found out that the old man that fell was just brought in into the ambulance. we spent a freakin hour in that museum and the ambulance just came? hoo boy.
and I forgot about the rest of the day :D maybe carisa or andin can give a better explanation.

4th day
so, this day... we headed to washington. we watched national treasure one and two on the bus, which tells us mostly about america. which was great. GO NICHOLAS CAGE.
this day was full of memorials and stuff so although I did take lots of pictures, it was pretty normal. nothing really special.
except maybe the white house and embassy row :D

now, we went to the memorials of lincoln, kennedy, jefferson and roosevelt. also the war memorials of the korean and the iwojima war. many statues and quotes, nothing special much.
oh, a fact: did you know that the National Mall isn't a mall where we shop? :D it's a place between the lincoln memorial and washington monument. there's a huge pool in the middle. i'll give a picture~
and it's also the area between the smithsonian museums and the capitol - washington monument. I forgot which one XD

we only got to see the white house from afar, which wasn't all that great since I wanted to kill bush with a shoe. :D and maybe see obama.
oh speaking of obama, I found the obama bobbleheads. -gubrak- I thought it didn't exist and yet there it was. scary yarr? there was also mccain but his bobblehead was scary so I didn't buy.

okay, the embassy row was FAAAABULOUS.

SO, it was all the embassies of the world; I couldn't count. THERE WAS INDONESIA SO IT WAS FAAABULOUS. :DDDD
it also looked better than the one in qatar. ah america <3

i'll post pictures after my camera's charged.


-TO BE CONTINUED-

american trip - intro

okay, so I changed my blog layout. pretty nifty yes?
thank god for XML documents. there are a few better ones but anyway they have been used by lots of people. (and this one isn't?)

well as most of you know, I went to the american trip and just came back about 2 days ago. and I just have one thing to say.
AMERICA IS SO COOL <3
although it was tiring and we had to walk more than 2 kilometres (-getshot-) it was loads of fun.

so, at the airport, we had to wait about... was it an hour... after we got in the immigration. the reason why was because some people got held up and interviewed because of their nationality. seriously, what the hell. the people who were checking our passports were scary @_@ it's like being in a police office. good thing I didn't get interviewed, or else i'd have a weird experience the first time I came to america in years.
New York looks exactly the same the way I remembered it. especially Little Italy.
we ate at this restaurant in Little Italy - an italian restaurant, duh - and the waiters were so gay. (gay in 2 different ways. XD) oh and:

Lily: the waiters here are so gay. (gay as in happy)
one of the waiters: *looks at lily and most possibly thinking 'I am SO not gay'*
Lily: *shuts mouth*

since here in Qatar we say gay as in happy, well in america it's different. DIFFERENT.
then after that we went on the bus back to the hotel, sorting ourselves out and sleep. I was one room with marshii and lily while carisa was with andin and these egyptian sisters. we slept in a hotel in New Jersey, which is not New York. -keeps mental note-

2nd day? pretty cool. we went to the ferry to go to the Statue of Liberty. on the boat it was DAMN COLD - I felt like dying. not to mention the fact when the big horn on the boat got off it startled us all. but I got used to it right after XD since i'm surrounded by loud voices all my life. -coughcarisacough-
then after we went to the statue of liberty we were dropped off into Battery Park, which we didn't have enough time for sight-seeing. and the group was separated because it was very crowded. @_@ so we walked into wall street (I finally remembered why it was called wall street - so many freakin walls honestly) and arrived at this harbor.

I shall call it Peking harbor for the fact that there was a ship called Peking there. lily was shocked and took many pictures of it. :D

then we had time to eat and shop for about an hour or so. I managed to buy a game which I didn't start yet, though I should. AND THERE'S NO FREAKIN SUMMON NIGHT 3 SJDFVBKJRVFKHBV.
there was only summon night 1 and 2 which I already have. dammit.
and so, we gathered in front of that peking ship and then it was our time to go. our bus broke down for some apparent reason and we had to switch buses. good thing I didn't leave anything on the last bus or else i'd panic. :D

then we had a tour of uptown, midtown and downtown of New York. we also saw ground zero - the terrorist attack site - and it was just a construction site, nothing special yet.
and I just knew that the north of SoHo is NoHo. ISHDHAKAL.
there was also a district in brooklyn called DUMBO. -ahhahahahahaha- it stands for... for... district umbala manhattan broadway order? :D
/getshot/

then we went to times square. IT WAS SO SHINY *0* AND I LOVED IT. too bad we didn't get to shop there or else i'd have no money left. (is that a good thing)

then after dinner we went to... BROADWAAAAAY~
we watched spamelot and it was so funny, although I slept for a while because I was tired. then I woke up during the gay scene. :D
when we walked out it was snowing. too bad it didn't cause sheets of snow the next day. T_T

-to be continued since it was 10 days and if I only wrote 2 days it would be just WRONG-

International Award

okay, so last week I went on expedition. it was pretty cool.
now, since it was liek a gabazillion seconds ago, I might not remember stuff. :D

FIRST.
okay, well school went okay as usual. me and my group were nervous about the expedition. well it was our first one anyway - so we were scared.
then 12:45 struck and off we went.

we didn't have time for lunch nor solat. D< but I managed to finish about 3/4 of my lunch before it was my group's turn to go. so yeah. we all put on our bags (they were FREAKIN HEAVY... or not) and off we went.
we arrived at the first checkpoint 5-10 minutes later. (LOL WHUT)
then we walked to the next checkpoint for about an hour? I forgot. :P during that time we complained about our bags and marshii was already complaining about her feet. -_-
OOH OH AND THERE WAS THIS SCENE when we were walking happily and gaily (IS THAT EVEN A WORD) and a freakin landcruiser was chasing us with 2 qatari peeps in it.
and so all 4 of us actually went into a formation and went the other waaay~ (excluding marshii who actually went to talk to them =.=) so because of her we found out that they were actually police and wanted to ask u to leave the area because 'important peeps' are coming. (UN anyone?)
my shoulders started to feel sore when we arrived at the 2nd checkpoint. when we arrived, we banged our bags to the floor. :D
and after a short break we went back to walk.

now, the way to the 3rd checkpoint WAS HELL. @_______@
it was the longest distance we had to travel. crossing 2 bridges, ignoring some indians who asked us for water on the way. I forgot what they said but I think it was...
'namibich'? :D 'nanimitch'?
well something liek zat.
anyway, by passing 2 bridges on the way and getting lots of honks and stares, we were almost to the 3rd checkpoint.
AND WE GOT LOST. 0_____0
well basically the part where we had to take the inner road we instead too the main road with lots of sand. we had to go back and take the inner road and reach the checkpoint.
we also met the boy's group of 5.. or was it 4... people. both groups reached the checkpoint safely. -nodsnodsnods-

then, we walked nonstop to the 4th checkpoint. if the 3rd checkpoint was hell, this was the pit of hell. =.=
the 3rd checkpoint was like waaaaaay over here and the 4th checkpoint was waaaaaay over there. (geddit? :D) and because it was a shorter distance then 2nd to 3rd we walked nonstop and no resting. the boys, on the other hand, rested a lot. lame. :P
when we arrived we took like a 10-minute break. hahaha. I almost slept from the tired-ness.
then, we took ages to find the campsite - I held the compass and it was dark, so yeah.
we just kept walking to the watch tower and when we almost reached we found it. BIG COINCEDENCE. haha.
not to mention it was dark and we were tired. 3 groups including mine arrived at the same time.
IT WAS HEAVEN *0* it felt like a huge boulder was lifted from me and I walked with a gay face to the campsite. :D

we just set up our tents and we ate immediately after me and saher went to pray zuhur, ashar, and maghrib. hayah.
the hot chocolate was good~ the joy of camping.
then the night was spent with this activity where we had to make up something like a morse code of our own and do it with our flashlight. we suceeded in all 26 letters and I still remember them all. :D
then all of the girl's groups did truth or dare in a circle and told some ghost stories. KEHEKEHEEKEH. then we all went to sleep. honestly, everyone was fast asleep until morning. guess we were that tired. XD
then the next day we just packed up and went home.
SCHOOL NEVER LOOKED BETTER HONESTLY. :D


and that's it. :P I don't bother going into all the details except the fact that we got more than 30 honks and waves and stares. or maybe even more. -hohohohohohohohohohohohoho-